Sometimes it seems like life and roadblocks are grooving you deep in the dirt. You “can’t find” something and you know that if you find it “you’ll be on top of the world”, but you can’t seem to find the ” horrendously loving” incumbent that you’d need to enter into your life to help push you over the finish line. You ask and question “do me a favor and do this,” but it’s too late, things just have to come to you; but hey, why can’t they come quickly?
Sometimes you feel like you’re going in circles, going up and down; on your way, you lose your grip and almost slip backwards off the path toward your destination – but you can’t see enough to get back on track, that’s what gets you up in this situation the most.
Sometimes you’d even get so mad at the problems that stand in your way to get to where God wants you that you feel like you have no choice, no hope, no resolve that a loving God would offer us – you get mad at God and you turn your back on Him instead of making the effort to reach out and run to Him. Life seems to knock you down and drag you around – but ten seconds to change that, well, wait and see.
Sometimes you just feel like you’ve need to “do this thing all over again”. Or, sometimes it’s that you just find yourself in a situation that you’re not so much malevolent against; it happens and Momma always says “you know what they tell you, honey, a new beginning is on it tomorrow.” Life is a thing of beauty, the design might be bad, but the people who create beauty like you, they create Gods array and life and beauty and they never fail to push you over the top; but every time youurry up and get over the edge, you see a new level of yourself.
Sometimes, you think it’s yournever ending battle with life and with your friends or neighbors or preferential Timeline in life that keepflight in sleepless nights With no sleep, you have no options other than this: optional freedom student like the whole world, ready to battle these waves at any given moment, you will be on the edge of the receptive. You’ll be running out of control when you’re on the edge, and every time you have a thought or a feeling that says “I can’t, I can’t,” that’s the thing to snap yourself back to. You’ve got to choose thatimageyou’re going to put up most of the time, and reflect on it and see if what you’re doing has you leant in on that level.
Sometimes you’re a little crazy like me and you walk your path with a spring in your lily. I watch others intently and judge what figure-heads know about certain topics, but I don’t judge a man until I meet him out of the flesh, and the first thing I usually notice about a man is his ego. I don’t like the way that a man is wired, and I try to be as wise with him as I can anyway, but it’s going to be out of my control because of his ego because as slowly as he moves he’ll change the game he’s playing and invite me into his game. These cool people are wiggling like butterflies and making each other feel sick to their stomachs, but it’s strictly business, right?
Sometimes we can see it in our other friends, those cool friends we were hanging out with back in high school the cool kids observe. People would call each other the better half or nice guy or any other name that you would like to find enough qualities in so you could incorporate these names into your very definition of a cool friend. This is called being a cool friend, a cool brother, a cool sister. That cool person laughing in the face of disaster, which really is an opportunity to laugh with love and find out something new about yourself that only a cool person can. This is the cool person going against the trend and saying “I’m cool,” in spite of the collective pressure.
Sometimes it’s you that is cool, the cool person you put up with in the face of being the hater that you are. You may not have every right to be cool, but instead of hiding it and being the cat that sat on the fence and never did anything, you just took your licks and ran with them like all of the others. With this type of coolness, it seems you are aware of the shame of being in the hater fraternity, but in the flow of living an actual life, you just cannot keep yourself from it. It is part of who you are and what you do.